[ NOOOOOOOOO don't tell him you're disappointed……… he sits on the chair, frantically gesturing with his hands in a panic. ]

Y-You could have been up there! It felt like the natural place to be!!

[ ugh lying to fyodor is useless, he knows, but that “you disappoint me so” really hit him. he reaches and sprawls half his body across the table to hold his hands tightly. ]

I wasn't crying! I wanted his opinion on marrying you!! Fedya!!

[ full drama in public ]